Anxiety = Bagels

No new news to report. Still working my way through the left over soup. I froze some for the purpose of eating when I’m too lazy to cook at a later date, but I still have more left overs.

nom nom nom

My new obsession this week is bagel chips. SO GOOD! When I diet or “eat healthy” as I have been doing for the past few months, I traditionally give up bagels. It is impossible for me to eat one without chive and onion cream cheese and one bagel generally leads to another. In the past I generally give up bagels and then when something makes me mildly anxious I will revert back to my old ways… not so this time.

For the past few weeks I have had this feeling like my heart is beating in the throat. Carolyn correctly diagnosed me with anxiety. There is a lot going on. I’ve been emailing jobs like a mad women, but I have been feeling less anxious for the last few days dispite there being no developments. I’m not really sure why this is but I’m not complaining. Maybe its because I’m allowing myself bagel chips. Or maybe its because I’m starting to really feel that I have two choices 1) stress about getting and keeping a job for the rest of my working career (the next 40 years or so) or 2) I can relax and know that there is nearly a 100% chance that I will have a job this summer, next summer and then various jobs for the rest of my life. And none of them will be in the food service industry.

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